today de xin qing...^^

today me feel like a candle hven finish...still at yesterday...i dono y at home n at my working place feeling still the same... unhappy....hopefully can go holiday... bt cant bring my work along with me... nw this work n b4 de work nt same de... nw de work more things to let me do... n no too much talking... same with i wan de work... din talk too much with unknw ppl  de me is better thn b4 le... in my pocket no enough$ le... i wanna buy my things like formal wear n shoe... wanna buy 4 working... no use buy 4 go out shopping or wear at house de le... vry stress whn wanna thinking wat to wear whn work...n thinking too many things in my life...no ppl will understanding what i gonna do right nw n after that...some ppl will treat me like a baby or a kid...bt they dn even knw i try to be adult... all ppl just think 18 years old until 20 years old is remaja or that kind of gangster or what ever lah....i wanna try all kind of things that i would like to try... bt i wouldnt try the big guy doing de things lah... bt som ppl are controlling at me... including my frens... n family members.... haiz.... i knw what n y they controlling at me.... bt too control de "bird" oso will fly away frm whr they live de....i knw what im doing n will doing.... oso knw i dn1 to do... pls..... sometimes dn too treat me like a baby,kid n nt too matured de 18 years old gal...until nw i oso din do any wrong things... expy fren with som bad fren in my life...me always small gas... thinking too much negative de things in my brain...i will nt receive some ppl that "yuan wang" me... this things hard to lost in my mind...i dn like too much missunderstanding in my life.... i would talk or write to thm that they oso knw de word... i wouldnt talk or write aliens word to that ppl i wanna talk to thm... expt perkataan kasar lah....^^ hah.................... nw i feel more better le whn talking n write i wanna write de things on this blog... i hop i can change into a person that i wanna be...